Disciplined in the making

As I think about areas of my life that I can work on the one that comes to my mind most is the thought of acting in a self disciplined way.  

Mind tools.com explains self discipline as:

“the ability to push yourself forward, stay motivated, and take action, regardless of how you're feeling, physically or emotionally. You're showing it when you intentionally choose to pursue something better for yourself, and you do it in spite of factors such as distractions, hard work, or unfavorable odds.”

Far too often my feelings dictate my actions.  I feel…I react.   I have strayed so far from a disciplined diet and way of life…I validate my poor choices and then I complain that ‘I can’t lose weight’ for example.  

I notice how I easily get caught up ‘doing what I want’.  This comes with a cost that feels unfavorable.  In the moment when I have a choice I just react.  

For example: Just the other night I was feeling tired- sad- bored.  How did I react?  I ate a whole row of Oreos- 2 servings of Doritos and a bowl of cereal.  Then I proceeded to pass out during my long distance ‘movie time’ with my sis.  

How did I feel afterwards? 

• Unattractive, guilty, regretful, weak.

How do I want to feel?

• Strong, disciplined, proud, healthy

Here’s my public commitment:

• 30 days tracking my foods and activities in Lose it.
• 2 Positive affirmations every morning upon waking.
• 5:2 fasting plan (5 days of normal meals…2 days of fasting eating only 1 meal <500 calories)

Will this be hard?  Yes, but I don’t want a life that is easy and doesn’t challenge me.  

My journey back to healthy eating will require a tremendous amount of willingness and self discipline.  Let’s go!!!

While backsliding is part of my human-ness- I am grateful for the awareness to take actions that ‘FEEL’ better!  I’m excited to choose an increased awareness and greater actions of self- discipline.  

I set my eyes to vision how I’m going to feel on the backside of this… At the end of 30 days (Nov 12th) I see myself feeling confident and disciplined.  This feels good!