I choose my thoughts

 Day 6

“I choose my thoughts.”Our mind can take us on a wild ride. It can create suffering, fear, stress, peace, joy and calm. With up to 90,000 unconscious thoughts a day, our mind continually dishes out thoughts like a conveyor belt. What thoughts are you paying attention to? You have the ability to choose your thoughts and have conscious thoughts. Remember, YOU are in command of yourself. Are your thoughts helping your reality or hurting you and your reality? It’s your choice! What are some thoughts you can consciously reach for now that feel good?

What thoughts am I giving time and energy to?

As I lay here this morning I don’t feel like there’s a lot on my mind…but perhaps I’ve just put the wall up to keep them from flooding into my headspace…

Yesterday was a challenging day for me.  My attention stayed focused on the tightness I felt in my right leg.  I feel tears well up in my eyes as I type this…I found myself trying everything possible to feel relief from the leg heaviness that occupied my mind.  I stretched it…massaged it…contracted it …over and over without relief.   I found myself feeling down, unmotivated and full of fear.  

I want so bad to be able to control the outcome of my future health…I want to wish this discomfort away.  Feel freedom from the mental agony of the constant tightness that keeps me from relaxing or sleeping.  

I made it to the gym despite the temptation to skip out and watch Netflix…and after a 30 min spin session and a chest/biceps workout I found that my leg was less tense.  Ahhh..to be able to relax felt refreshing. 

As the day continued, the tightness returned.  I mentally was done.  I felt like I couldn’t go any longer without relief.  After work I cleaned up the kitchen/fridge, made a healthy dinner and laid on the couch with my puppy love.  I couldn’t find the mental strength to do any more.  I need rest.  After a couple hours my body finally hit a point of exhaustion and I fell asleep.  

Are my thoughts helping or hurting me and my reality?

My fear based and ‘what if’ thoughts are causing mental agony and holding me back from my best present moment.  

I feel like I wasted the day away yesterday…life is short

I choose to think:

Hard days will happen…. How I managed it is ok.

I will walk through whatever life hands me.

I love my smile and positive outlook…

I can find peace in this situation.  

I desire to invest my energy in my passion for mental health-cycling-and God.

Final thought:

How can I incorporate these passions into something to share with others?