Monday, September 25, 2023

Childlike spirit

This weekend while hanging out down at Elk River with the family, my mom said how she felt like she saw the youthful, childlike spirit come alive in me once again.  She took the time to share her viewpoint of what I was like as a young child.  Adventurous- happy- free spirited.  

As I look back to reflect on my childhood I remember the many days of exploring and adventuring in the woods I got to enjoy.  SO many memories of going hiking where there were no actual trails.
When my lil sis was born it seems like this part of me snuffed out.  I became confused on how to be responsible and adventurous at the same time.  I grew up and 'funned' down.  I found enjoyment in new things like the sound of my kids' laughter, watching them learn and grow- sharing snuggles. 

As I look to the vision of my future I see my path realigning to get me back to my roots, get me back to the mountains to be able to explore like I did when I was younger.  
As I listened to my mom describe the young adventurer she saw in me I smiled, both on the inside and on the outside.  I knew this girl and I love her... 

I am working lavishly not to become attached to any outcome.

Yesterday I killed it on the hiking trail.  I originally set a goal of 10-12 miles to help prep me for my Colorado and Yosemite trip. Initially the trail was decorated with rocks to scramble over, or traverse along the route.  As I continued the hike, it flattened out and required less and less traversing.  The details of the variety of colors in the rocks intrigued my visual cortex.  

Felt a bit of sadness as I thought about all of the people I miss. 

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